32: Freedom

Where were all your promises? you make me your play toy. you want or need something you come crawling towards me, u keep msg-ing me and all. but once you don't need me you ignore me. making me suffer.when i never text or call you , you ignore me. at least tell me something so that i wont worry too much. you're making me feel that you're just making empty promises. Love or lust? it seems to you that its lust and satisfying your wants or should i say pleasure. imma crybaby. you know why? its because i dont wanna get hurt again. im trying every way to tolerate with you. i try to sabar and tabah with your actions and attiude and everything. i've given you alot of chance. i dont control your life. i give you freedom. i dont stop you from meeting your friends or go out or anything. but what do i get in return? hurt. i just want you to let me know your whereabouts everywhere you go. atleast that way i will feel less worried about you. like earlier on, what does your ex mean by she got hug? then i texted you and you said you would txt me back. i waited for 3hour plus but no msgs from you. i texted you , you replied but like lazy want layan me. i waited another few hours then you told me you sleeping. at least tell me that you wanna sleep ready. then i will not worry and disturb your sleep. i hope you would understand me. i love you.