Saturday, December 4, 2010 , 1:51 AM

Finally i managed to be in love back after 10months being single. As days went by i start to grow feelings for you. Its been 2days now we're together. But i find you acting kinda different today. If its because of yesterday , my bad. Look here boy , i realized that you treat me different from your other ex. From what i see , you treat them with more love , care and everything. Are you just using me? This is what i'm afraid of. I'm always the victim. Treat me like a doll. When you like , need me or is bored , you come to me. When you don't , you'll just leave me all alone suffering.The way you replied my msg yesterday made me really down. i didnt sleep well. i keep waking up every hour , looking at my phone , wanting to text you but afraid you would get pissed off with me , do you know all that? I feel jealous at times going through your ex walls.

That is why i keep msg-ing you.I want to know your whereabouts. Its like you don't even care about me. I don't wanna fight with you. I know who i am. I know i may not be sweet , talk alot , good looking and etc.I may not meet your expectations but atleast i am wanting to try to make the effort.

I want us to update on our everyday lives. Atleast no one gets left out. I want you to let me know everything. I feel so sad when i got to know something bad that might happen to you through fb and not from your own mouth. As your gf , what am i for? And when i post something , you would never ask about it. If it were your ex , you would force them to call you and let you know everything. What is this? What am i with you for? Do you know how unappreciated i feel?

You should know that i dont wanna loose the person whom i love. That is why i dont wanna loose you no matter what. NO BREAK UP. you've promised me. How can i make you change for the better? There is more i want to say but i dont know how to put them in words. i am just writing what i feel and not want to cause any fight or whatsoever.I hope you would read this , you should know who you are.

Baby please dont go. I love you <3