Tuesday, November 30, 2010 , 7:26 PM

Love him? Love him not? i'm in a state of lost baby. its hard to explain what im feeling right now. its been 10 months now being single. i've had enough of relationships ever since i broke up with my last ex. because of that it has made me hard to trust guys now. im afraid i would be left alone again. some guys would be lovey dovey and make empty promises in the first place just to get to be with us , girls. but after getting attached , they would slowly change. no more everyday late night calls , no more updating on our everyday lives , no more seeing each other everyday , no more telling the truth and more. they would slowly hurt us in pain and misery. their feelings towards us would then fade away and the word " lets go our separate ways" or " i wanna break" or " we're done here. lets not contact or meet again" came out from their mouth. that is the most scariest part. after going separate ways , a few days or weeks after you got to know he is attached with another girl.That is even much more painful. That is why i want my next bf to become my husband. I know this is insane but that's what i want. think through carefully . we are now growing old , and we cannot keep changing partners. we must think of our future. if we keep changing partners, how old are we gonna get married?

hey garfield , as days pass by i kinda like you more and more. im afraid to be with you as im afraid you would leave me and slowly hurt me in pain. i know u promised not to leave me but im just afraid you would . furthermore , you gonna go to a new school next year. there will be girls there , im afraid you would fall for them and leave me. there are more that im afraid would happen. but i'll try to believe you.