32: Freedom

I’ve lost you , but I’m not dead yet. I’m trying my best, but there’s still words left unsaid . i still keep thinking about you . i just cant get myself to forget about you , i just cant forget our times together , our love . i miss you baby . i cant go on pretending . no matter how im enjoying myself with others , there is always a time when i suddenly think of you . it feels like insomnia . im wondering how you're doing now . no matter what im still gonna go on with life like i said before . im trying not to turn back .

not been going to school this week .in the first place i was too lazy and tired to go to school , but the following day mum had to be admitted to the hospital . i was really sad and damn worried . i accompanied her all the way . she also wants me to be by your side all the time . opet , wan , brende and dayah came over to visit mum . how sweet of them . after two days , she finally could be discharged . i need some proper sleep and rest . i seriously lack of sleep these two days . feel really tired to go to school tmr , well , that depends if i can wake up . having migraine now .

today is parents 31years anniversary .had a little family dinner . in the afternoon met smallgirl and irah . we slacked at usual place . ramai shey nariey . saya malu2 bukan sbb ape . dont get me wrong . its not like ive fallen for him or something . lol . just that im shy . maklum , just getting to know new people . anyways , its not pssible for me to fall in love with anyone at this point of time so easily whereby i still cant forget someone whom i still love .